that i fear permanence. that one of my greatest fears is being, or feeling, stuck. in a place, in a job, in a relationship.
i thought that i am simply afraid of being unhappy, as we all are, but i'm realizing that there's more to it. it's about being caught somewhere unhappy and being unable to run away. there is a distinction, i think. do you think there's a distinction?
the past few months have been a time of soul-searching and prioritizing. they've been good months, busy months, somewhat quiet months, lots of personal time months. i'm learning and admitting a lot about myself -- for instance, that i have really nice hair. but other things as well. more serious things.
i'm the best therapist that i can afford right now, and i'm usually satisfied with my work.