So, this is my life.

And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.

Monday, November 30, 2009

probably not. because i'm stubborn.

brown says...

Someone’s opinion of you does not have to become your reality.

good to remember.

Sunday, November 29, 2009


shouldn't be funny, but...


Saturday, November 28, 2009

wilde says...

If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

say "thank" again

2009 hasn't been my best year ever. in fact, it's been quite - what's the word i'm looking for? something not too melodramatic. umm - trying. yes, the past year has been a trying one. i'll save the ins and outs and ups and downs of 2009 for my New Year's Eve wrap-up post, or not. for now i want to focus on thankfulness.

every year at Thanksgiving dinner, my family goes around the table and each of us shares at least one thing for which we're thankful. this morning when our tradition came to mind, i couldn't immediately think of an answer. i never had this problem in years
past. and i don't like that i had any hesitation in coming up with an answer.

i think in times like this it's more important than ever to say "thank you" and to acknowledge those blessings and good things for which i'm thankful. for that reason, i give you:

10 things for which this guy is thankful
  1. A.P. Finch.
  2. a happy - and nice - home. Shaunice and i take care of each other.
  3. reliable drinking buddies and friends who know how to have a good time.
  4. my awesome hair. thanks, mom.
  5. vodka. thanks, Russia.
  6. Chelsea Handler.
  7. my bed. especially with a good book.
  8. my computer's 5th birthday came and went, and it still works like magic. thanks, Apple!
  9. Ben & Jerry's fro-yo. and not because i'm racking my brain to think of things to list here. it's legit amazing.
  10. the promise that tomorrow will be better than yesterday, and 2010 will be the best year yet. i believe.

now you tell me some things for which you're thankful this year. thanks.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Lois, the wise black receptionist says... part III

"Matthew, I got home last night and I thought, 'Ooh! I need a drink!' But then I asked myself, 'What would you be doing if you didn't have nothing to drink?' You know?"

"Well, what did you say back to that?"

"I said to my mind, 'Why don't you mind your own business!?'"

sweetest downfall

Monday, November 23, 2009

durrell says...

I had become, with the approach of night, once more aware of loneliness and time - those two companions without whom no journey can yield us anything.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


i think there is infinite happiness to be had. an infinite number of blessings to receive. the territory is boundless, and each of us deserves the whole of it. while that math may be confusing for our psyches and especially contrary to what we've been taught all these years, it is simply the truth. goodness will not run out. fortune will not dry up. and love will never be in short supply. so eat up, i say. take it all in. drink more than you should. there's more where that came from.

just a reminder to myself, but also to anyone else who would like to hear it.

soundtrack for life II


Thursday, November 19, 2009

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

you got me again, stars III

You are in the mood to play your cards right out in the open, for you really don't have anything to lose. You know what you want and you have the integrity to back up your intentions with a full demonstration of what you are willing to do to make your dreams come true. Fortunately, your current enthusiasm and clarity is an effective combo. Just don't push your luck too far or you'll be wishing you had an extra ace up your sleeve.

my whoroscope for today was right on the money. i better ride this wave while i allegedly (astrologically?) can.

time to get busy. but how do i know when i'm pushing my luck too far? have i already done that? do i believe in luck? am i a pusher? like, a drug pusher?

Monday, November 16, 2009

hafiz says...

I wish I could show you, when you are lonely or in darkness, the astonishing light of your own being.

Friday, November 13, 2009

soundtrack for life


whether you like it or not

i owe you a big apology
Sent at 9:08 AM on Friday
Eric: i just watched Twilight and i am obsessed
the acting in twilight is horrible. and its written really badly but i dont know.. im like pulled in.
and ive always thought robpatz was gross until i saw him as edward. now im in LOVE

you're next.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

The Road, part II

i was about to return this fantastic novel to its owner when i came across another devastating part that i have to share.*

Just take me with you. Please.

I can't.

Please, Papa.

I can't... I thought I could but I can't.

You said you wouldn't ever leave me.

I know. I'm sorry. You have my whole heart. You always did. You're
the best guy. You always were. If I'm not here you can still talk to me. You can talk to me and I'll talk to you. You'll see.

Will I hear you?

Yes. You will. You have to make it like talk that you imagine. And you'll hear me. You have to practice. Just don't give up. Okay?


in other news, the film adaptation is scheduled for release this Thanksgiving and, according to wiki, was filmed partially on a creepy, abandoned stretch of the Pennsylvania Turnpike, which is just outside of my hometown.

*edited slightly so as to not give away the ending.

longfellow says...

Every man has his secret sorrows, which the world knows not; and oftentimes we call a man cold when he is only sad.

Monday, November 9, 2009

let's go now

MP: I need to get out of the city. Let's go somewhere.
Me: I told D I might come visit saturday.
MP: That'll be fun. Let's go.
Me: We can get up and leave early tomorrow morning.
MP: No, let's go now. Whenever you leave work.
Me: But tonight I was planning to--
MP: Just say okay.
Me: .... Okay.

i think Baltimore gets a bad rap, but it's a lovely little town in which to spend a weekend shopping, drinking, and walking around with two of your oldest friends -- especially when your bff just moved into a sexy downtown apartment located only two blocks from all the fun.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Friday, November 6, 2009

i believe the children are our future

looking for a way to waste time today and cruise toward 5 o'clock? check out the blog Lamebook, which is a comical, slightly discouraging, too-true look at real Facebook posts.
we all have a Facebook friend (or two) who tends to over-share or post far-too-personal status updates. i, for one, am always tempted to LIKE the depressed cries for attention.
there was a time when an emotional rant would get my annoying Fbook friends swiftly deleted, but these days i graciously use the HIDE feature so that i don't have to see their craziness every time i log on.i think we can all learn some very important, if unsettling, lessons from Lamebook. for example:
  1. our generation cannot spell, nor does anyone care about grammar these days,
  2. teenagers have some serious drama going down, and
  3. some stupid kids need to remember that their parents are their Facebook friends.
depressing or funny?

you decide.

big ups to Mike for alerting me to this site. you're responsible for so much time wasted.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

this my jam

this song been stuck up in my head for weeks. daaamn.

hat tip: casshole.

Monday, November 2, 2009

payne says...

It’s not that we have to quit this life one day, but it’s how many things we have to quit all at once: holding hands, hotel rooms, music, the physics of falling leaves, vanilla and jasmine, poppies, smiling, anthills, the color of the sky, coffee and cashmere, literature, sparks and subway trains... If
only one could leave this life slowly!

Sunday, November 1, 2009