letter to a friend

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Dear [friend],

How do you eat alone in a restaurant?

Tonight I accidentally arrived at dinner 30 minutes early. They seated me. (Sat me? I dunno.) I sat (definitely not seated) alone for 25 minutes before T arrived.

I tried to relax. Tried not to fidget with my phone. Tried not to update F-book again. It was difficult.

I thought of you. You travel so much. I know you end up in restaurants and bars alone. How do you feel?  How do you get through it without feeling lonely?

Last winter I went to see a romantic movie alone. First time alone in a theater. It was a test, and I passed it okay -- once the previews began. Alone at a table for 6 at a crowded restaurant was less "anonymous," or so it felt.  Less okay.

Thoughts?

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what about you guys? thoughts?