So, this is my life.

And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.

Friday, September 5, 2008

bradbury says...

Don't ask for guarantees. And don't look to be saved in any one thing, person, machine, or library. Do your own bit of saving, and if you drown, at least die knowing you were headed for shore.

and you know what? i agree with him.

i didn't always. there was a time, not very long ago at all, in which i wanted to be saved. asked to be saved. needed. yearned. prayed.

what was i thinking? and why did i think it? it was never imposed upon me. in a household of 3 athies-- no -- agnostics, at best, i independently decided to seek salvation, which apparently comes packaged with republicanism. and where did it get me?

and where is it getting america? i've never been the most political person, but my heart holds a special place for conservatives -- especially the evangelicals. i understand you people. i've been you.

you're faithful. loyal. you truly do have the best of intentions, even while you're denying a faultless minority group their basic civil liberties. why? because you're trusting of authority. you've been taught for so long to seek guidance and approval from the lord and all his appointees.

but if you stop robotically agreeing for one second and just analyze what you're being told, by golly, doesn't it upset you just a scosche?

for instance, i can comprehend that global warming and the need for alternative energy sources means very little to a person who genuinely believes that the messiah will be returning soon. [okay. for all you non-churched folk, please suspend judgment for just a bit while we discuss this. thanx.] but let's just say, for argument's sake, that the son doesn't come back-- oh... i dunno, for 100 more years. now tell me this:

what about your children? what about their children? and if they're anything like today's most prominent conservative children, *coughbristolpalincough* what about THEIR childrenoutofwedlockborntoteenagers? hmm?

and haven't we all been encouraged by god since the dawn of time to be good stewards of the earth's resources? read the Good Book, y'all! you don't realize how far you've strayed, because the shepherd's stunt doubles guided you there.

there comes a point when you need to stop sitting there on the uncomfortable, hardwood, numb-ass pew nodding in agreement to every word you hear before even processing it, and make your own decisions.

you know, maybe jews ain't so horrible and confused. i mean, they all seem to be financially very blessed by the Almighty. take that as a sign that god loves them.

and maybe abortion isn't the worst thing to happen on earth. c'mon, we were ALL hoping that gorgeous little jamie-lynn would shine brighter than her trainwreck big sis. and her downfall was preventable. i'm just sayin', y'all.

and maybe our allegiance to the "conservative" party isn't necessary to faithfully encourage the lord's will on earth. eh? whaddaya say? it's time that you give a little. swallow your goddamn pride. you'll be glad you did.

...i am.



Pat, said...

I think faith should be looked at in the truest sense of the word... People just BELIEVE in something (religion, the Bible) and have FAITH that what is said to come true will come true.

I, personally, think it's such a weak way to live and think and be. It allows people to give up their free will, basically and just let everything "happen the way it is planned." That's mostly why I despise the phrase "everything happens for a reason." NO. IT DOESN'T. Did my friend's brother die to "teach her how to cope with loss?" Did bad things happen in my past to "make me a stronger person?" nooooo.

Things happen. Then you respond. Positively or negatively. IT'S UP TO YOU.

That was a tangent, but basically if these people think that everything is predetermined and destined and everything then why don't they just sit at home in bed all day and wait for the inevitable.

I'M ANNOYED. Thanks for reading.

ASH said...

very good post, matthew. me likey.

Taylor said...

Awesomely-put. That's one of my favorite quotes. And you're one of my favorite people.