so far from where we've been

i heard this song in a store the other day. so random, right? it was never a "hit." most people probably don't know it. but it's such a lovely song.

i found myself thinking, as i heard it over tinny retail speakers, not so much about how sweet a song it is, but rather about how great a video accompanies it.

i LOVE this video.



the mix of pain and contentment in this song (with or without, but it's stronger with, the video) is so real and personal. i imagine we can all be sympathetic to Gwen's "i'm happy for you, but it still hurts to see --" expression. i've been there. it really is bittersweet.

where is the line between loving someone so much that you want that person to be yours alone, versus loving someone so much that you want that person, whether yours or someone else's, to be his or her happiest?


i, for one, have trouble with that line. i don't want an ex to hold onto our relationship if there's no future, but it hurts so much to see, or even think of, him with someone else.

i just want to get to the point where, after all that we've been through, i know we're cool.