So, this is my life.

And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.

Friday, April 2, 2010

not on the corner of First and Amistad

this morning i caught myself feeling quite unreligious (irreligious? my spell-check doesn't hate that one as much.) when i remembered that today is Good Friday. i simultaneously remembered that i didn't give anything up for Lent, i didn't get Ash Wednesdays smeared on my forehead (sensitive pores! the Pope would understand.), and - oh yeah - i haven't been to church in two years.

so as i went about my day, i thought about what a GCB i used to be and about how far i've strayed. i decided to be sensitive and mindful throughout the day, looking for god all around me. i should do so every day, because it's a very nice perspective from which to view the world around you.

i'll add that it's probably much easier on a perfectly lovely Spring day. maybe even easier in a place like picturesque New Hope, where i spent the day wandering the streets, eating unhealthily, and taking in the sunshine. as i did so, i found god all around me:
  • waking up early after a good night's sleep with all the windows wide open.
  • Mr. Finch all up in my grill and purring like crazy. that almost never happens.
  • the little boys feeding potato chips to the uninterested ducks and explaining to mom that the ducks really do prefer chips over bread crumbs.
  • the pub that was crowded at 11 AM and had the best selection of sandwiches and burgers. and fried things. mmm fried things...
  • the gaggle of old trannies dressed up like they were going to church. i think they were having a say-something hat day! bless their hearts.
  • the very slight sunburn i got, like a kiss from Jesus, welcoming me to Spring after a long, snowy, and vacationless (read: ghostly pale) winter.
  • listening to a friend's relationship woes and realizing that, for better or for worse, i have no comparable complaints -- for the first time in a long time.
  • arriving home to some pretty great mail for the second time in a week. thanks, mr. postman! i love you too!
that's where i found god today.


in related news, my personal goal/quest for April is to be more mindful as i go about my days and weeks. more on that later.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I tried to be a GCB as well but then I ended up having meat for dinner, a big no no in Ireland. If I wasn't going to hell for the homo thing, it's rcertainly set in stone now.

Taylor said...

Here's where I find God -- your reference to a "say-something hat day." Too Wong Foo, Thanks for Everything, Julie Newmar. Love it, and you. Happy Drink for Jesus Day.

carteemily said...

try capital G mr snooty.

Colleen said...

A kiss from Jesus. Yes!

God loves you, M. Even in the winter, but especially during spring.